Distraction

Distraction...distraction...distraction...There is no distraction...There is no end to the pain...and I think my heart is going to burst from all the pain and sadness...I desperately tried to find a distraction...but it doesn't work...life is short and death is always looming over...so close...so unpredictable...sometimes I hate being human...sometimes I hate being me, for feeling everything so intense...it's too much...too much...and there is no end...